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Paper plane flow through the sky
To the hands of my lover from mine
I did hope these sweet words would win
But now my hopes paper thin
Broken apart my porcoline heart
You’ve scattered each piece on the floor
But if you could glue the pieces brand new
Maybe we could find love once more
Paper weight the letters I’ve saved
And now there just weighing me down oh dear
I’ll paper bag the memories we’ve had
And bury them far from here
Heart of glass you shattered so fast
We were so careless then
But if you would sew together this whole
Then my heart will find love again
Oooooo….Ahhhhh
Paper heart was white from the start
We’ve stained it like burgundy wine
But love is a taste that gets better with age
I know he’ll find love this time
You’re not an angel and I’m not the perfect man but you know I love you
So why won’t you let me in
Give me one reason to stay and I’ll stay
Give me one reason to leave and I’ll leave
I don’t need you to be me
I’ll be just fine being free
Yeah
I’ll be just fine being free
You’re like a shadow that I cannot hold on to
I’m not a prison
I cannot tie you down
Give me one reason to stay and I’ll stay
Give me one reason to leave and I’ll leave
I don’t need you to be me
I’ll be just fine being free
Yeah
I’ll be just fine being free
Oh
And I’ll be alright without you on my side
I’ll still sleep at night but don’t make me have to
Give me one reason
Give me one reason
Give me one reason to stay and I’ll stay
Give me one reason to leave and I’ll leave
I don’t need you to be me
I’ll be just fine being free
I’ll be just fine being free
Yeah
I’ll be just fine being free
Yeah
I’ll be just fine being free
So here I am in Colorado. Having a great time with wonderful friends. And tonight I’m going go try and conquer one of my fears. I write music. I have written for almost 10 years, but I never play it for anyone. I’m scared of the possible rejection. So tonight I play. I’m going to an open mic night in Denver to get my feet wet. This is one of my resolutions for 2011: get over my fear and play my music. So here goes…I hope I don’t throw up before I go on stage. 😉
Also…I wrote this post from my phone. Regular posts will continue when I get back.
My Friend Rachel posted this video on her facebook. I LOVE IT! Yay for finding new Artists! Her name is Kina Grannis and her new album drops April 5. I highly recommend it.
Love, it's a special day We should celebrate and appreciate That you and me found something pretty neat And I know some say this day is arbitrary But it's a good excuse, put our love to use Baby, I know what to do Baby, I... I will love you I'll love you, I'll love you Love, I don't need those things I don't need no ring I don't need anything But you with me 'Cause in your company I feel happy, oh so happy and complete And it's a good excuse, put our love to use Baby, I know what to do Baby, I... I will love you I'll love you, I'll love you Yeah, it's a good excuse, put our love to use Baby, I know what to do Baby, I... I will love you I'll love you, I'll love you So won't you be my honey bee? Giving me kisses all the time Be mine, be my Valentine So won't you be my honey bee? Giving sweet kisses all the time Be mine, be my Valentine Oh, be my Valentine
I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there’s no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe
But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can’t believe I still want you
After all the things we’ve
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I’m not
Around you
It’s like I’m not with me
But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can’t believe I still want
You
After all the things we’ve
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
(still you’re gone)
Can’t believe that I still want
You
After all the things we’ve
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you
So I’m not sure why it always flows downhill
Why broken cisterns never could stay filled
I’ve spent ten years singing gravity away
But the water keeps on falling from the sky
And here tonight while the stars are blacking out
With every hope and dream I’ve ever had in doubt
I’ve spent ten years trying to sing these doubts away
But the water keeps on falling from my eyes
And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord! To suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away
So blood is fire pulsing through our veins
We’re either writers or fools behind the reigns
I’ve spent ten years trying to sing it all way
But the water keeps on falling from my tries
And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord! To suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away
A lie to run
It would be a lie
It would be a lie to run away
It keeps on falling (x4)
Water keeps on falling from my eyes
And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord! To suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away (x3)
This song is my life. I wish they would come out with a new album. It’s been awhile.
My friends from high school
Married their high school boyfriends
Moved into houses in the same ZIP codes
Where their parents live
But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow
I hit the highway in a pink RV with stars on the ceiling
Lived like a gypsy
Six strong hands on the steering wheel
I’ve been a long time gone now
Maybe someday, someday I’m gonna settle down
But I’ve always found my way somehow
By taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
I met the queen of whatever
Drank with the Irish and smoked with the hippies
Moved with the shakers
Wouldn’t kiss all the asses that they told me to
No I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow
It’s been two long years now
Since the top of the world came crashing down
And I’m getting’ it back on the road now
But I’m taking the long way
Taking the long way around
I’m taking the long way
Taking the long way around
The long
The long way around
Well, I fought with a stranger and I met myself
I opened my mouth and I heard myself
It can get pretty lonely when you show yourself
Guess I could have made it easier on myself
But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow
Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I’m gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
You would take my pain away
I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when…
When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave…
I never leave Your hands
I write songs. Music and lyrics. Most of the time they never see the light of day. Occasionally they do get played for different things. Sometimes I just write to get my feelings out. It is very therapeutic for me. I am still very hurt over my friend betraying me. I wish I didn’t care, but I do and what hurts the most is that she does not even think that what she did is wrong. I never really told her how I felt, I didn’t want her to feel bad. Stupid, I know. Why care about someones feelings when they don’t care about yours. Unfortunately, that is who I am and try as I might I have been unsuccessful at changing that. So instead I am in the process of writing a little song that reflects my feelings. I really hope someday that she hears this and cries…ok, maybe not…yay, I do. 😉