Facing Fears


So here I am in Colorado. Having a great time with wonderful friends. And tonight I’m going go try and conquer one of my fears. I write music. I have written for almost 10 years, but I never play it for anyone. I’m scared of the possible rejection. So tonight I play. I’m going to an open mic night in Denver to get my feet wet. This is one of my resolutions for 2011: get over my fear and play my music. So here goes…I hope I don’t throw up before I go on stage. 😉

Also…I wrote this post from my phone. Regular posts will continue when I get back.

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Music Mondays: Jon Foreman


So I’m not sure why it always flows downhill
Why broken cisterns never could stay filled
I’ve spent ten years singing gravity away
But the water keeps on falling from the sky

And here tonight while the stars are blacking out
With every hope and dream I’ve ever had in doubt
I’ve spent ten years trying to sing these doubts away
But the water keeps on falling from my eyes

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord! To suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away

So blood is fire pulsing through our veins
We’re either writers or fools behind the reigns
I’ve spent ten years trying to sing it all way
But the water keeps on falling from my tries

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord! To suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away
A lie to run
It would be a lie
It would be a lie to run away

It keeps on falling (x4)
Water keeps on falling from my eyes

And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my Lord! To suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away (x3)

Music Monday’s – JJ Heller


I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn’t there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

Your hands
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when…

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave…
I never leave Your hands

Payback’s a Bitch Just Like You!


I write songs. Music and lyrics. Most of the time they never see the light of day. Occasionally they do get played for different things. Sometimes I just write to get my feelings out. It is very therapeutic for me. I am still very hurt over my friend betraying me. I wish I didn’t care, but I do and what hurts the most is that she does not even think that what she did is wrong. I never really told her how I felt, I didn’t want her to feel bad. Stupid, I know. Why care about someones feelings when they don’t care about yours. Unfortunately, that is who I am and try as I might I have been unsuccessful at changing that. So instead I am in the process of writing a little song that reflects my feelings. I really hope someday that she hears this and cries…ok, maybe not…yay, I do. 😉

Beautiful Things


I am at a conference all this week. Gungor played today and then talked in one of the session about how they wrote this song. I have been having a rough year and to hear Lisa Gungor tell how this song came out of rough circumstances and pain really spoke to me. God uses it all, and nothing is ever wasted even the most shitty of circumstances can be transformed into beautiful things

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

Music Monday’s – The Civil Wars


The Civil WaBarton Hallowrs,with their haunting melodies and minimalist approach to music, released their first full length album Barton Hallow, on February 1 2011. I am in love with this album. Joy Williams  and John Paul White’s voice’s compliment each other well, which lead to rich, alluring harmonies.

A few of my favorites off this album include Falling, The Violet Hour, My Father’s Father and The Girl with the Red Balloon. Falling, eloquently tells the story of the death of a relationship and the pain and mixed emotions that play into falling out of love. Not only are their original songs great, but they happen to cover I Want You Back by the Jackson 5. I am normally not a huge fan of covers, but this one is so unique that it draws me in instantly.

The Violet Hour is a beautiful instrumental piece with piano, guitar and cello it’s melody is hauntingly captivating, just like their vocal stylings. The simplicity of The Civil Wars is what makes them stand out in time when Techno Pop and Rap tops the charts.